this is gonna be an awful saturday. tomorrow is rex's funeral. how awful to die so suddenly, so young. i wasn't really good friends with him; rather he was part of the greater group of people that i know. i was better friends with his wife, cynthia...wow, has she had a really lousey 10 years. two bouts of breast cancer and now, this. following the mass, there will be a memory luncheon at st. johns. and the entire gang will be there. damn, can we ever get together again for a happy occassion?

tomorrow night is the michigan notre dame game in ann arbor, under the lights. and i won't be there, AGAIN. it still hurts that i'm not there. IMG really knows just how to totally demoralize a person and take the wind of of my sails. second year of this shit and i'm still brokenhearted. can't watch the games on tv without crying. i miss it so much. all of it. even tony yelling at me. LOL